I'm not okay (I promise)

My own morality has come to my attention. Do you realize that i could be dead a year from now. No, I don't mean we all could be dead a year from now, which is entirely plausible, i mean, me... I... myself... i could be dead a year from now. I signed up for the army, and, although i'm pretty sure i won't be sent to Iraq or Afghanistan, who knows? i could be dead a year from now. Everybody's gotta die sometime, right? Whether it's an evolution of the species... all that Darwin shit, I could still be dead a year from now. I could leave Naomi a widow... i could die, not having made anything at all of my life. Why oh why did I sell my soul to uncle sam. i read Josh's livejournal. He just turned 18. He was apologizing for crap he had done. What about me? I'm 20... a highschool drop out... I can't even read music for crying out loud.... when was the last time I apologized to someone for something evil i did a long long time ago? I don't think i ever have. I apologize to Naomi every day just about... but that's different. I love her and she loves me and when i apologize to her, i absolutely mean it... but still.. it's different.
So what the fuck... I'll go ahead and apologize for some of the stuff that's on the top of my head.

I apologize to you, Mr. John Kerry, for not receiving my vote. I thought you looked too much like a horse to deserve a place in the white house. Your ketchup connections didn't help you much either.

I apologize to Roy and John John, I took up your living space for a week... made your lives miserable... got kicked out of your little friendship circle... and for what? i gave you nothing in return but embarrassment and anger. It was very childish of me.

I apologize to you, Mrs. Penelope. Even though it was in second grade, i still thought about your mongo breasts.

I apologize to N*Sync for making fun of them all those times. I'm sure you guys are somewhat cool.
I apologize to the Backstreet boys for the same reason.

I apologize to Britany spears, Christina Aguilera, Angelina Jolie, football, automobile accidents and chocolate. I should have been a normal guy and lusted after you more.

I apologize to Rhoanna. I'm sure you didn't want all those things to happen... and if you did... I'm sorry it couldn't go further.

I'm sorry, Hector. I hated yopu for a brief period before i came to know you. You were best friends with Samantha Beard, after all. And you wouldn't even hook me up.

I'm sorry Lash.... i fouled up your computer with all the downloaded porn and think your mom is a MILF. Your one of the best friends I ever had. I'm sorry for that too.

But most of all... I'm sorry, Kevin. We fell so far apart... and I didn't even do anything to stop it. I even moved away and married the girl we all thought least likely to marry. I can never forgive myself for what happ[ened to us... but I can certainly try.

There are probably billions of more apologies... but I've bored you enough.